Have I ever told you that 'change' unsettles me? I realized that only about a few months ago.
I didn't like it when I moved to Chennai and it took me a couple of years to settle down. Then when I moved back to Kolkata, believe it or not, first month I actually missed Chennai, just a teenie-weenie bit. And then of course I moved to US and detested it. I was unhappy and miserable and I cried such a lot! (There were many reasons for that in the first couple of months, those of you who know me well would know what I mean!) Soon I settled down and got into a rhythm of things.
And now comes another change - I moved to NY yesterday. I get that 'unsettling' feeling again. My roommate is an Indian Professor who teaches Nutrition in one of the universities close by. We shall call her IPR from now onwards. IPR has 4 cats. I mentioned in one of my posts before that I am not really a dog person. But what I didn't mention is that I am not a cat person either. So it's sort of weird every time I step out of my room to see cats roaming around. I feel like they are glaring at me and saying: "So you are the newbie huh?" Also, the house doesn't look as nice as it looked in the pictures I had seen before. But yeah, this will have to do for the next 10 weeks. I am not sure if I am just paranoid or what but even the food here doesn't taste as good. I ended up having extra sweet cereal with a raw banana for breakfast. And yesterday I made some maggi for a snack. That was the last packet of maggi that I had and imagine my plight when the maggi didn't taste the way it does! I mean how can maggi ever taste bad?! It freaks me out! Anyway, IPR took me out for grocery shopping in the evening and I am stocked with stuff for the week. So far what I have seen of NY is not very nice. It's crowded, dirty, smelly. I miss India and home and parents and S and friends. Sigh...
Anyway, so as you all know now, that this 'unsettling' period is temporary. I call it the inertia of motion. Once I settle down in a place and get into the rhythm, then its like I am moving at a certain fixed pace. And then suddenly I find myself somewhere else. And I feel all unsteady for a bit until I get a grip on things and start moving again!
(Until then, you've to put up with my grumpy self for a bit!)
I didn't like it when I moved to Chennai and it took me a couple of years to settle down. Then when I moved back to Kolkata, believe it or not, first month I actually missed Chennai, just a teenie-weenie bit. And then of course I moved to US and detested it. I was unhappy and miserable and I cried such a lot! (There were many reasons for that in the first couple of months, those of you who know me well would know what I mean!) Soon I settled down and got into a rhythm of things.
And now comes another change - I moved to NY yesterday. I get that 'unsettling' feeling again. My roommate is an Indian Professor who teaches Nutrition in one of the universities close by. We shall call her IPR from now onwards. IPR has 4 cats. I mentioned in one of my posts before that I am not really a dog person. But what I didn't mention is that I am not a cat person either. So it's sort of weird every time I step out of my room to see cats roaming around. I feel like they are glaring at me and saying: "So you are the newbie huh?" Also, the house doesn't look as nice as it looked in the pictures I had seen before. But yeah, this will have to do for the next 10 weeks. I am not sure if I am just paranoid or what but even the food here doesn't taste as good. I ended up having extra sweet cereal with a raw banana for breakfast. And yesterday I made some maggi for a snack. That was the last packet of maggi that I had and imagine my plight when the maggi didn't taste the way it does! I mean how can maggi ever taste bad?! It freaks me out! Anyway, IPR took me out for grocery shopping in the evening and I am stocked with stuff for the week. So far what I have seen of NY is not very nice. It's crowded, dirty, smelly. I miss India and home and parents and S and friends. Sigh...
Anyway, so as you all know now, that this 'unsettling' period is temporary. I call it the inertia of motion. Once I settle down in a place and get into the rhythm, then its like I am moving at a certain fixed pace. And then suddenly I find myself somewhere else. And I feel all unsteady for a bit until I get a grip on things and start moving again!
(Until then, you've to put up with my grumpy self for a bit!)
Oh by the way, here are a few pictures of my new room:
8 comments:
Get a dog, it might actually be fun :D
P.S Nice post...
I know how moving to a new place feels. But cheer up, you are in the BIG APPLE! You should sound excited about exploring..after all you've always wanted to go to NY! Don't worry you'll make new friends there. And though I love the bubbly and energetic person that you almost always are, I like the grumpy you just the same :).
It never easy I totally agree. But the ironic thing is, that this is the time where you start missing the people whom you normally would not do, start acknowledging the presence of your friends with whom in similar situations you got a push on and start remembering the great time you have had in friends! I had a so- very- similar story just a few weeks back, when I started calling all my friends, my undergrad class mates and also people whom I had lost contact with. And let me tell you – it works BIG TIME! I am blessed to have some really good friends who have stood by me when I always wanted them to.
The first time when I left Bombay for the first time to spend a year with someone whom I had never met before, a place which is alien to most Indians even now (NIT Rourkela) and having stayed there for 4 years is in itself an experience which has set me up for life. The friends I have made there, if doing great are still the very same friends. How often with distance do we see that the tone and taste of friendship having gone sour- but not in my case! For you Mana- missing someone should get easier every day. Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will. Am sure like you said – its change, will change again and is just a passing phase. My condition here is as close as yours if not the same. But I guess I have settled my nerves now.
A good Sunday for Roger becoming the greatest and Paes winning the 3rd French Open. So cheers !!
Nice room - looks really good in the pix :)
@Nishikant
Yes. Someday I shall get a dog. Someday :)
@Hema
You are so sweet and nice to me hema! What would I do in life without you?! And you have seen me in the grumpiest of times and you still like me inspite of all that. So hats off to you! Love you lots!! Muaaaaaaaaah! :)
@Vinay
You are so right. Bang on! 'Cos just yesterday I was talking to someone and I said the exact same thing that I should always remind myself everyday that with each passing day I am closer to meeting the people I love and care about! And yes, during times like this, we do get back in touch with friends who we hadn't been in touch with for sometime. So that's looking at the bright side of things! :) Thanks!
@Dolly
Yes the room does look good in the pictures! :)
Thats what friends are for! Muah!
Nice room. That'll be $5.
@anuj
Very funny!:P
I have commented on your blog too! So we are even. :D
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